Nothing To Fear

I was recently on a silent retreat. Our group and I were at a remote and beautiful church where we stayed in silence for the whole weekend. It was an old rickety church with old rickety rooms, and we were all in complete silence. It was weird! But refreshing, and I wrote this poem during my stay. Untitled: My faith is gone. My hope is shaking. My knees are weak. My hands are breaking. My breath is short. My time is wasting. I’ll look to you. Dear God, save me. I have nothing. There’s nothing to me. Without you, God, I am not real. Without you, God, I am not here. Without you, all I have is fear. All I am is hate All I am is fake All I am is waste All I do is take. Dear God save me. Give me something to give. Dear God help me, so that I may live. My tears are dense. My wounds are deep. My heart is heavy. My soul weeps. Dear God, I need you. What have I done! I’ve taken advantage of your only Son. I’ve fallen away, to the south I did run. Dear Go, I need you. What have I done? This life takes me, takes me from you. The strains of the day break what I once knew. I once could see you. What a beautiful view. I knew you would pull me, pull me through. Take me to you. Make me new. I long to reach out. I’m reaching for you. Dear God, hold me close. Dear God, take me back. Dear God, in this life It is love that I lack. Dear God, take me in. Dear God, bring me near. Dear God, in your arms I have nothing to fear.