Round and Round

I have the song Pine Trees and Pretty Things stuck in my head! "And we go 'round, 'round, 'round, 'round, 'round, spinning like a carousel. And we go down, down, down, down, down, around pine trees and pretty things :)

A Loony Tune

It certainly has been a while :) I got a little distracted and sidetracked, but I'm getting back to doing what I love to do -- and writing is one of them. So, here I am. I'm still writing what I especially love to write: songs. Last night I wrote "Thank You"... and when you think this song think CONDESCENDING. Muahaha! The chorus goes like this -- Thank you for breaking my heart, I didn't know it from the start. Thank you saying I love you, then having my dreams not come true. Thank you for loving me so, and then letting me go. I didn't know it then, but I know it now. I'm so much better off without you around. -- It's basically about a very obsessive girl who falls in love with a guy and wants to jump into a white dress right away, scares the boy off (naturally... poor guy), and then finding a little "girl power" inside helps her get over it. It's cute. One of my favorites that I've ever written, and it's personal too. Those ones always tend to be the favorites. Well, that's all for now folks ::carrot crunches:: I'll be off whistling a loony tune (To all of you who got the reference, 10 brownie points to you!)

Nothing To Fear

I was recently on a silent retreat. Our group and I were at a remote and beautiful church where we stayed in silence for the whole weekend. It was an old rickety church with old rickety rooms, and we were all in complete silence. It was weird! But refreshing, and I wrote this poem during my stay. Untitled: My faith is gone. My hope is shaking. My knees are weak. My hands are breaking. My breath is short. My time is wasting. I’ll look to you. Dear God, save me. I have nothing. There’s nothing to me. Without you, God, I am not real. Without you, God, I am not here. Without you, all I have is fear. All I am is hate All I am is fake All I am is waste All I do is take. Dear God save me. Give me something to give. Dear God help me, so that I may live. My tears are dense. My wounds are deep. My heart is heavy. My soul weeps. Dear God, I need you. What have I done! I’ve taken advantage of your only Son. I’ve fallen away, to the south I did run. Dear Go, I need you. What have I done? This life takes me, takes me from you. The strains of the day break what I once knew. I once could see you. What a beautiful view. I knew you would pull me, pull me through. Take me to you. Make me new. I long to reach out. I’m reaching for you. Dear God, hold me close. Dear God, take me back. Dear God, in this life It is love that I lack. Dear God, take me in. Dear God, bring me near. Dear God, in your arms I have nothing to fear.

I'll Hold It

The realization
Our steps will never come together..

The disappointment
It was all to no avail.

I watched him drift away
Not even a look over his shoulder.

Shed a tear, and plenty more
Confused, hurt; used.

He held out his hand
I let him hold my heart

But to trust words under moonlight..
Everything shifts under moonlight.

Eyes become starry,
The tide falls,
And a kiss is at midnight is the most romantic.

Open heart, giving love
With no one to give it to.

Open heart, giving love
With no one to give it to.

Why did you open my heart
If you were to fade away?

Give me a heart, and I’ll hold it.

Give me a heart, and I’ll hold it.

Give me a heart, and I’ll hold it.

Acceptance...

Acceptance...
Acceptance?
What is acceptance?

We all need it
We all need to do it
We all need acceptance
We all need to accept..

Something bad that happened
To us that we can't change.
Something that wasn't our fault
Something we didn't ause.

So, this is my journey
My beautiful journey
To a beautiful place
But through a scary forest
With unknown creatures
On an unknown road.

But I am prepared
With my lit candle
In my open hand.

The wind will comfort me
Wrap me in its arms.
The light will guide me
I won't trip or fall.
The land will feed me
Nourishing my body.
The trees will protect m
Creating a home for me.
The rain washes the pain away
Crying with me
And washing the tears away

Life's Tension

The sun blocked
By the leaves of the trees.

The river crashes
Over the sharp rocks.

The air smashed
Against the wings of the bird.

The flower pushes
Its roots through the dirt.

So the leaves
Can produce fruit.

So the rocks
Can be smooth agin.

So the bird
Can fly high above the clouds.

So the flower
Can grow strong.

And so the earth
Can keep moving
growing
and living.

Poem: Wings.

There’s something delightful
About a bird flying by.

Think about it:
It’s quiet outside
Can only here the light breeze
Not a cloud in the sky
Just the sun through the trees
And a bird flies by
Did you hear its wings?
It’s a miracle, I think

Never heard anything like it.
One of a kind.
How a bundle of feathers
Can make a bird fly.

It makes me think
Of how I want to be
In this life
Soaring above the trees

So small
Yet so strong
To fly so high
For me, in due time

Just like the brightest star
Shines in the blackest night
Is a bird flying
Past a scene so silent

It’s so unique
So serene
So strong
And so free

… This is how I want to be.